Friday, December 14, 2012

S'agapo...I love you by Lea Schizas

For the past several years I've made it a tradition to post this particular short story of mine because it brings out so many emotions in me.  I hope you enjoy. Remember that our loved ones are here today...gone tomorrow. Let's not wait to give them that hug, nor to express how much we appreciate Thank you.

S'agapo...I love you
by Lea Schizas

The lights of the nursing room were unusually bright this Christmas Eve night. An outsider had visited Mrs. Sophia Adamopoulos earlier in the day. She brought a Greek dish, pastitsio, filling the halls with its aroma of cinnamon and pasta…a welcome change from the lingering odors of Lysol and urine.

The nurses greeted her, comforted her and explained the state her mother was in.

Armed with the latest update, Maria Adamopoulos stepped into her mother’s surroundings. Childhood memories hit her hard. The vision of her mother combing her beautiful long tresses and hugging her as she said, "Maria, s'agapo, I love you", enveloped her heart. Her mother cheering her at every track meet, making sure she was never late. Her mother’s laughter filling the house with joy as Maria practiced her words for Saturday's Greek school. All these images flashed before Maria as she faced the cold aberration she stepped into. No embroideries hung on the walls like in their family home. Mom's cassette player playing the cherished Greek songs she sang to, was missing, as well.

But the single picture that broke her heart was to see her mother sitting by the window, emptily staring, not outside at the panoramic garden view but at the empty walls within.

"Hello, momma." As Maria approached to hug her, Mrs. Adamopoulos flailed her arms in front of her, terrified.

"Who are you? Help me!"

The nurse ran in and immediately soothed her.

"Sophia, Sophia, calm down, you have a visitor. This is your daughter, Maria. She's come a long way to see you." Maria felt like running and shaking her mom to the present, to try and get her out of this Alzheimer stupor that gripped her.

Guilt rose in Maria. She thought I should never have listened to my brother. I should have stuck to my guns and brought mom back to Greece. Her brother had stopped visiting. He told Maria mom doesn’t recognize me, so why bother. Maria was here to bring her mother back home.

Sophia stared at Maria as if trying to bring about a memory forever lost in this mind disease. The nurse left them alone once more.

Slowly, Maria again approached her mother. "Look, ma, I made your favorite dish." She gently lifted the tinfoil and let her mother take a look.


"Yes, momma. It's Maria."

Tears flowed down Sophia's cheeks. "Where is my memory when I really need it," she cried.

That night the dim lights magically lit brightly as if Sophia's memory and those dim lights were one.

Maria had entered her mom's hospital room as a stranger, but for one magical moment her mother embraced her like she used to, a long time ago, whispering the words Maria needed to hear once again.

"S'agapo, Maria. I love you."


Marie Laval said...

How right you are Lea. Memories of loving words, kisses and hugs always stay with us. Christmas is a time to remember the ones we loved so much, and love still, but who are no longer with us. It is also the time to cherish our children, our family and friends. Life is fragile but love stays with us, always.

Susan Hornbach said...

It's a beautiful and moving story Lea. My friend just e-mailed me with a similar story about her mother. I'm going to forward this story to her as I think it will bring her comfort. Thanks for sharing. On my blog I wrote an article about writing from the heart. It speaks of sharing your love and thoughts before it is too late.

Anonymous said...

This definitely struck a cord with me...brought tears even. My mother passed away before she completely forgot me...but the dementia was like losing someone through a slow and agonizing death. Bless her for all the memories she gave me in those last few years.
Beautiful story, Lea;)

Rhobin said...

A moving story for all of us with parents suffering dementia.